Goodbye Baby

Yesterday Augustine Alexander passed away. It was the saddest, and most tragic day of my life. I know that the decision we made was the right one, but I will always be saddened by the fact that my first baby did not make it. There are really no words to express how horrible and empty I feel right now. I miss having her in my belly feeling her moving every now and then, even though I know that she wasn't made the way she was supposed to be. In my mind she is perfect, and has affected me in a way that I am forever changed.