This is something that I miss oh so much. This being the SUN!!! Living in Chicago it seems that the majority of the years are spent in the dark and cold. Once in a while the sun peaks itself out for us to see. Nothing is green anymore, but brown instead. It can be a bit depressing and dreary if you let it get to you, which I try not to do. I will say that i'm very excited come April, when you don't have to wear 10 extra pounds of clothing and still be frozen solid. Spring is coming I hope soon!

they are my world

when i was young i always wanted some kind of furrycreature in which i could pet and love...however, the fact that my brother was allergic to any kind of animal with hair made this basically impossible...during my youth we went through a number of different kinds of pets...we had things from lizards, to mice, to fish, and i think that is about it...i REALLY loved the lizard!! i still remember one specific day that i went to elementary school and was SOOO excited to come home to play with my new favorite friend, but when i got home he was gone....my mom took him to our rental house and let him go..WITHOUT even asking me! i mean, she was the one who had to take care of the thing so i guess that's probably why...the only part that interested me about it was it..not the cleaning and the taking care of part...so that was that...

during college i really could have cared less about having a pet...i was not ever home and didnt have time for one...once i met amir i quickly fell in love with his dog, Rufus....at this time Rufus was 5 years old and although he previously had a mother figure i was the one around and i was taking that roll..i love it so much!!! a few years later we adopted my dog..little melvin...when we found him on the street he was no more than a month old and he reminded me of one of those KayBee toys dogs that walks two steps and flips...walks two more steps and flips again...he was the cutest thing i had ever seen...i'm SOO grateful to have them both....i do not have any children but my dogs feel like my children....i am the world to them...i feed them, play with them, and love them...it seems so unfair that dogs do not really live that long of lives compared to their owners...amir and i sometimes joke about cloning the dogs, but i think it would be more creepy than comforting after they are no more...

in waiting

in 2 months we are set to move ....somewhere......probably into the same apartment complex that we moved from....which in a way feels a bit strange but i'm actually looking forward to it...so basically i feel as though im in this strange transition period...where i'm trying to enjoy my last few months living here in the city knowing that i'm gonna be going soon...
i think that we had a good run here in Chicago...it was an alright city to live in, however, money always seems to enhance things...unfortunate for me, that's one thing i've not really had since we've moved here...one thing that we could have completely used some extra money for was a parking space so that we didn't have to street park...street parking is a pain in the ass!! in my hood you've got to be home by like 8 at night to secure a parking space so that you don't have to drive around for hours....and i mean hours...i've had to do it before.....this whole situation kind of puts a hinderance on one's social life.....
one thing that i really enjoy about my dear old lakeview hood is that it has such a european feel to it...i can walk to pretty much anything..groceries, shopping, bars..they are literally a block away...it's just a really good place for walking and being outside which is one thing that i am missing right now here in subzero chicago....it seems for days that the sun is nonexistent which makes me understand (sorta) why there's so many overweight people in this state. however, this is still no excuse for it..i still walk to and from the gym in 10 degree weather...maybe i'm crazy, maybe i'm not...all i know is that i've got a wedding dress to look fancy in....
so that's all for now i think......i'm sure that i'll be back sooner than later since with this part time job i've got that's what it really, truly is...i work two maybe three times a week if i'm lucky.....
later people...if there even are any people that read this blog i have no idea

The Last Days

This was the last day that I had dreadlocks...January 13th, 2008....they were 7 1/2 years old and very loved. I'll miss them but I have to go it alone right now...rest in peace

Here I Am

So there was a reason that I wasn't sure if i should start a blog like this or not. Mainly because i'm not all that good about keeping up with this sort of thing. But i'm back and it's 2008 now....The year that i'm gonna be getting married. Woohoo!! Oh yeah and since it's 2008 that also means that i've been outta high school for 10 years. It feels a bit strange to think that it's already been that long, but I guess it really has.
There is so much to do this year...just in the first 5 months there's like a million things happening. Moving, marrying, honeymooning, finding a new job, new clients...so much to do...i'm stressed just thinking about it all. But i'm pretty excited to start a new part of my life. My life as a straight haired, married woman...oh yeah, I cut off my locks!
Soon enough i'll be Mrs. Melissa Alexander since i guess that i've decided to change the good ole' last name.
Anyway, since i've been away for such a long time i'll give you a recap of what's been happening in my life..althought not too much has really happened.

-Put up our first Christmas tree
-First Christmas at our house
-Got a massage therapy job/part time
-once again interviewed at Whole Foods and didn't get it
-did all the final alterations to my wedding dress
-planned honeymoon
-cut my dreadlocks....there will be a picture soon...maybe even with this letter
-been depressed over heath ledger's death
-watched a lotta heath movies
-been getting used to my new hair

That's really about it....for now i heading out to watch some tv....oh yeah..i'll leave on this..two things...first i read a book called The Way of the Peaceful Warrior....READ IT! this book is really amazing and makes you think about the way you think...And second..i saw Juno and There Will Be Blood....see them both...they are both extremely brilliant movies!
Peace out everyone....hopefully i'll be back again before another 2 months........

Merry Christmas to Me!

I'm starting to feel as though i'm never gonna find a job. First off, it's Chicago and it's December, which means that it is freezing outside. Who in their right mind wants to walk around looking for jobs?? So basically ive been just searching the internet looking for jobs and hoping that someone will love my resume enough that they'll call me up for a job!! I feel as though maybe i'm not doing enough but, i'm not going out there in the snow and 20 degree weather searching for a job that i'd probably hate anyway. So instead, I think that i'll keep searching the good ole' net for employment until i find something. That is the way i found my last two jobs so hopefully something will come along. I guess in the meantime i'll keep being a good housewife and keep the house looking good and clean for my future husband so that when he gets home from a long hard day of work there will be something nice to come home to! haha....sometimes I wish that I could just be a housewife and not have to worry about all the job stuff...do my massage thing from home and be my own boss! Maybe once we move to the burbs I can. We'll have to see what happens. For now though, I must rack some money up quick so I can buy some nice gifts for Christmas! Gotta get some nice things for my fam and the dogs.

Wasting Time

I feel as though i've been having the worst luck lately. It took me a lot of hard work and dedication, BUT I finally made it thru school and was ready for my first massage job. So, I get hired at this place that is being built and the owner KNEW that this was my first job and that I was very new into the profession. She KNEW all of this. She told me that I had "a good touch" and that she would like to do a trade or two with me. So fast forward a month and a half about three weeks after our opening. As a new MT out there, I felt really good and was feeling like I definentely picked the right career this time. I was making people feel good and also enjoyed doing it. So right around this time my boss takes me aside telling me that a few people say that I seem like a novice. Okay, well I am a novice so that's alright I guess that they think that. I might not be the best at clinical because that is not something that I have been trained in and am learning that all on my own. Anyway, to make a long story short, my job was basically in jeopardy at this point. All for something that basically, in my opinion, should have never been a question because the fact that i was new was already out there. So anyway, fast forward another week. My boss calls me on the phone and tells me that she has to give my shifts away. The reasoning being was that I "don't have enough experience". And what really pisses me off about that is that I waited almost two months for this place to open and wasn't looking for a job. So now i've wasted two months of my life basically doing nothing when I could have been looking for something that maybe could have lasted. This is what really upsets me about the whole thing. I wasted months of my life making NO money when I could have made some elsewhere. Now there's only 6 months til the wedding/honeymoon and i'm jobless. How fabulous, right???
So this whole week, i've been searching the internet for jobs and basically come up with nothing. Hopefully something decent will come along so that the last 6 months of me living here are not hell. Anyway, if anyone knows of anything keep me posted!